"My master taught me the sword, but I learned to drink on my own." ~Battousai :)

After sooo long...

2006-10-08T23:19:00.000+08:00

I might say its been quite a long while... :D
about roughly 2 months if I remember correctly.
Well, a lot has happened since then and I feel like taking a moment to ponder and reflect on what's happened.
You could say that I've been feeling melancholic lately...
But if I must put it into words...I'd say that I am utterly exhausted, drained and bitter. Not that I'm not happy or anything. But let's just say that I don't know what to do anymore. I don't even know why I'm feeling somewhat upset.
Maybe I should go through what's happened since the upcat (which was my constant topic in my previous posts). :)
Anna Lou, Frances, Kyla R., Kyla J., & Asami are now blackbelts. :D That day, I could only stare and watch them in awe and pride. They were just so amazing. And they were so...syncronized with their forms and skilled with everything else. It makes me very happy that God has given me the chance to be active in the sport of Taekwondo. I honestly shed tears when I thought of the chance of quitting the sport if I had no time when I reached college. I hope that never happens and pray to God it never will. Aside from that, the 1st trimester exams were okay...although I know I could've done better. But what's done is done. I can only do my best to pull up my sadly not above average grades...sad since this is the year were my grades are beginning to drop. On the bright side, seniors won the sapag. We deserve it!
Also, intrams was a blast! We definitely improved but lost by one point. That's no loss though(Manalo, matalo, basta may colegio!). I won almost every minor sport I joined. Not to mentioned that I broke my glasses on several occassions (sack race and agawang buko :D ). It made our batch one and united! All for one and one for four! Let's go seniors! And the Acet was okay, not as deadly as upcat.
I love my grad pics as well. :D not my formal though! :P
I even took the promotion last week. I hope I skipped and now a red belt, but that's something I will still find out in a few weeks time. I must also add that I experienced being drunk or rather tipsy for the 1st time. I drank 5-6 glasses of white wine in one hour I think. It made me very light-headed, a sensation that was rather odd and, at that time, foreign to me. What caught me off guard, however, was the searing headache that came to me after a few hours! It was horrible. I could't even walk straight & I couldn't stand the pain in my head. There was a constant pounding in my head, almost as if my head was being banged against a steel concrete wall or something even harder than that. I fell asleep as soon as I was brought to my room to escape the pain and just rest. I even felt a bit sick and disoriented when I woke up (I still had some homework left unfinished). I recovered the next day, thank God.
And that's all the major events since then...
Since my mind is shallow and hazy I forget things easily I regret.
But I must say and conclude that I seem to be wanting more out of my life that I should be very grateful for. I am selfish, truly, but is it wrong to just want something very out of the ordinary? I don't know if it's because of my obsession over anime or reading too much fanfics that has clouded my mind with such longing, but, nevertheless, that's how I feel. With much dismay, I fully acknowledge the fact I should wake up and face reality and deal with my priorities. Alas, my mind and body are tired for I've done everything in my power for the past 4 years (since grade 7) to rise and get exellent grades. I fear that I've grown weary and easily distracted. I am now even writing in a style I don't normally use. How strange...
I feel as if I am living an inferno that slowly drains my life energy away...not that I feel so much remorse to the brink that I'm suicidal. Just...maybe...I need a break. For how long, I am not sure. I wish I can find an answer and some solution to the chaos and confusion that is currently consuming my mind....
Sayonara for now....
Sincerly
Kagome

SAPAG!!! SENIORS RULE!

2006-08-18T22:19:00.000+08:00

Today was the big day!
I had to wake up 4:00 am so I can ride with Marichi going to school. :D
Kasi...we had to practice mga 6:00 am!!!
SOO SLEEPY!!!
We practiced all day before the real thing. :D
I was really nervous!
I was literally shaking when we did ours (my section was the last to present). :D
I didn't have my glasses on so it was easier to not to see the faces of the people in the audience. :D
Section C won! :D The part where Aika S. was acting like she was going to faint was so cool! People where really going to rush to the stage! Even Sir Sonny! :D
Grabe! BASTA! ALL I can say was that all our sapags where super nice and no secton was better than the other since ALL of us were greater than great! :D
Now, our next mission is beat the lower batches!
GO SENIORS! :D
UNITED WE STAND; UNITED WE FALL!!!! :D

August...the month of HELL

2006-08-12T19:40:00.000+08:00

First of all...the UPCAT was bad.
REALLY BAD. I left a lot of blanks in the math part....grrrr...
And the Filipino reading comprehension really turned my brain into mush.
Oh well. Moving on. I'll just have to hope for a miracle.
This week was absolutely draining!
Sapag (sabayang pagbigkas) has been super tiring too. I hope that we win! I didn't attend all the practices for nothing! I even missed my beloved taekwondo!!!
WAHHHH!!!!
And our adviser is kind of mad at us right now. I'll spare the details since I don't want to be the one to spread what happened. :P
What else...I have lots of stuff to study for, I have to do art stuff like designing and painting, intrams, taekwondo promotion and tournament...BASTA! A LOT TO DO! THIS IS HELL MONTH!!!! I can't wait for sem break!!!!

UPCAT COUNTDOWN (13 more days..oh no..)

2006-07-23T22:29:00.000+08:00

I've officially killed myself...
Why am I so stupid....!!!!!!!!!!
Since I've noticed that I'm not exactly studying properly, I promised God that...
that...
that.....
NO ANIME BEFORE UPCAT!!!!!!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!
It was a stab to the heart!!!!!!!
I know it's a sacrifice (I'll feel really guilty pa if I broke a promise to God)...but I wonder if I'll be alive before the UPCAT....
SOB!!! I MISS FMA ALREADY!!!
MY BELOVED EDWARD-SAMA!!!!!!!!!!
Luckily, I met up with Ampie today so I'm not as sad as yesterday.
But still...
13 days...no downloading...no fanfics...no TV (anime)...no new pics...only anime music...
If there was no music then I would've died now!
Hayyy...I must hang on!
Pray that I pass and still be alive by August 6...
This will be my last blog til then...
Laterzzzzz.....

UPCAT COUNTDOWN (15 more days!!! Shizzz...)

2006-07-21T23:17:00.000+08:00

Oh no! Another day gone!
What am I supposed to do???
I want to study but I'm never in the mood to do so!
Haayyy....
I'll try my best to read through all my biology notes by tonight!!!
Also we went to MRAP Damayan 2 again! Super fun! I want to go again!
Oh and I didn't go to the batch party that was today...
Oh well, I was able to get 4 hours of sleep a while ago.
I'd rather get my strength back than going to the party and feeling really tired.
I need strength to study!
Basta! I'm super scared of UPCAT, school (aiming for outstanding award this year e! Meaning: NO GRADES LOWER THAN G!!!), and Taekwondo!
Weh! Such a hard life!
Got to go now. Only have little time in my hands! :D I also have training tomorrow!
Ja ne!

UPCAT COUNTDOWN (16 MORE DAYS...)

2006-07-20T22:58:00.000+08:00

Oh no! UPCAT's sooo near na!!!
I have to study like crazy now!
I really do hope I pass. My mom's been pressuring me pa nga e!
Not only that, I've been sleeping 3:00 am this entire week! I'm lucky I don't faint from exhaustion! Luckily I'll be sleeping before 12 tonight.
But fourth year is really stressful pala!
It's super stressful when you want to study for the entrance exams pa!
Grrr....
Basta! I'll do my best while balancing my studies.
I'll put my to-do list here! (for this week!)
->Ateneo & UST application
->STUDY FOR UPCAT!!!
->En. Sci. Test and get La Mesa paper from 2C
->Session 4 IW
->Intrams (try to join the senior badminton team and WIN!)
->try to compete in the upcoming Taekwondo NATIONAL competition (SCARY! SUPER NOT READY!)
->Music quiz
->Physics hw and test
->Eng test
->Fil quiz?
->make my write-up
->UP mock exam
->Computer grp presentation
->Likha mural

Super dami noh!
Oh! Gawad Kalinga was super fun! A day with Ampie!
Gateway was fun too!
We watched Love-wrecked and played in Timezone!
I LOVE TIMEZONE NOW! Hehehe
Yan muna! :D

The Senior Life....

2006-07-02T00:29:00.000+08:00

It's been a really loonnnnggg time since my last post noh! :D
Grabe!
Where should I start???
A lot has happened kasi! :D
First of all...
I'M AN ADDICT OF FULLMETAL ALCHEMIST!!!!
ED IS SOOOO HOT!!! :D
*fangirl scream*
ALSO AL AND ROY!!!!
wwhooo!!! calm down girl!!! LOL!!! :D
Besides that, I'm a senior now. Less work than 3rd year but what gets you all worried and stressed would be the college entrance exams!!!!
Yuck I feel like I won't do very well...BUT I must think positive!
I've been thinking of taking medicine in college...But I don't know if I can survive in Molecular Bio...hehehe. It's worth a shot at least. :D
And I've been working on my artistic skills as well!
Making some progress!!!
I'm also going to spend time with Ampie this coming weekend!!!
LUCKY ME!!! :D
THANK YOU GOD!!!!
GAWAD KALINGA ROCKS!!! (that's where we're going. :D)
That's all for now! :D

So much to do... :D

2006-05-28T17:58:00.000+08:00

Hey! I haven't posted anything in quite a while! :D
Nothing major has happened so far since the last time I posted.
I came back from my trip to Singapore last Friday. :D It was fun! :D
Although I couldn't really totally enjoy myself. :D Let's just say that there were times when my ninang and tita got on my nerves. And it would have been more comfortable for me if my parents went. But it was just me, them and my little bro. :D
Hopefully they will never know the existence of this blog. Because if they read this entry, I'm seriously dead meat.:D
Anyways. Moving on. :D
I started review classes yesterday. It was ok. I couldn't concentrate 100% though because of the cold I got going back home from Singapore. Not that I'm saying that I would've done better without it. :D
Also...
TAYLOR WON THE TITLE OF AMERICAN IDOL SEASON 5!!!!
SOUL PATROL!!!!!!!!!!
I WAS SCREAMING A LOT WHEN I WATCHED THE LAST TWO EPISODES OF AMERICAN IDOL THAT I RECORDED!!!! (I wasn't in the country remember?) :D
It was great!!!
Now for the bad news...
I have classes in just a few more days....
NOOOOOO!!!!!!!
Not to mention that I have to review more now.
*Deep sigh*
Oh well, that's life. :D
I'll just cheer myself up by thinking about a new fav anime of mine: Full Metal Alchemist!!!
Bye Bye's for now! :D

Woke up in the wrong side of the bed...

2006-05-17T08:45:00.000+08:00

I want vent right now so expect angst from me....
I was just sleeping away very peacefully since I slept mga 1:00 am.
Then I heard murmurs and whispers.
I was woken up by my mom to find out:
JR DELETED MY GAME IN KINGDOM HEARTS 2!!!!!!!
That took me a week to do!!! And i slept late pa for it!!!!!!!!!
I was supposed to study and read 3 books this week!!!!!!!!!!!
THIS IS JUST GREATTTT!!!!!! *sarcastic face*
I shall release all my anger in training later!!!!
Also, I would like to mention that I got kicked in the face for a 2nd time by Niña last training which was on Monday.
Yan lang for now...

AMPIE'S HERE!!! :D :D :D

2006-05-13T20:04:00.000+08:00

Yey!Ampie finally is sleeping over again in my house!!!! :D :D :D
Grabe we finally reached the final battle with the Tattoed Woman (aka Reika; aka THE ANNOYING WOMAN IN TATTOOS [note:I nearly typed a bad word after annoying :P] ).
We did mga over 20 battles pa ulit-ulit na with her!!!!
GRABE!!!!! AYAW MAMATAY!!! :P
We need to battle her again later to see the ending...HAY NAKU! May 2nd playthrough pa and nightmarish mode sa Fatal Frame 2!!! WILL THE HORROR EVER END????
Oh well, fun naman! Getting scared to death and getting all nervous and paranoid!!! :P
We ate a lot pa kanina...naku bumalik na bilbil ko!!! :P
Oh well...(dami kong 'oh well' noh!) may 2nd wisdom teeth extraction ako!
I shall starve for mga 2 days uli! :P
Another annoying thing: AYAW MATAPOS YUNG DOWNLOAD NG 'THE RING' KO!!!
HAYYY!!!! BAKIT!!!!!!!!!
Yun lang... :D :D :D
Ampie's here... :D :D :D
Oh yes another thing...SOBRANG BITIN NG GATE KEEPERS 21!!!
I WANT TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENED TO SHUN UKIYA-TACHI!!! (if you didn't know what this means e sorry ka na lang :P. It's kinda Japanese.)
That's all muna!!!

By the way! I have decided on my motto na!! And it's dun dun dun dun....!!!
"There is no such thing as coincidence in this world; only inevitability."
QUOTED BY!!! THE B-E-A-UTIFUL AND POWERFUL YUKO-SAN!!! :D :D :D

Now 17 years and 4 days old....

2006-05-11T17:35:00.000+08:00

Wow! It's been quite a while since my last update. :D
I just turned 17 although I don't feel 17 quite yet. :D
What's up???
Hmmmm...let's see. Lately, I've been missing all my friends.
I also haven't been in nerd mode in forever and I should be by now. (WAH!!! I dont want to study yet!!!!)
The wound in my foot bled quite a bit yesterday during training, too. It wasn't so bad since Coach Hector but a bandage on it. Thankfully, the blood didn't distract me because the wound was covered and all; and it didn't hurt at all. :D
What else???
I've been addicted to the PS2 game Kingdom Hearts 2!!! So much fun yet so annoying since it's hard to unlock the secret ending!!!
My trip abroad was postponed as well. And I'm only going to Singapore this time. Oh well, less things to worry aboud coz now I don't have to go to 3 countries within one week. :D
I also watch American Idol kanina! So UNFAIR!!!!!! WHY DID CHRIS GET ELIMINATED??? Even if I like Katharine, still! Based on yesterday's perfomances it should've been her to be the one to go home!!! Oh well...
Plus I really like 2 new animes! Full metal Alchemist and xxxHolic! :D
Well, that's all for now! :D
P.S. I WANT TO GO TO THE AMUSEMENT PARK!!!! LIKE ENCHANTED KINGDOM OR SOMETHING!!!
:D

My Life's Update :D

2006-04-19T21:32:00.000+08:00

Yet another weird day for me.
I want to first of all share that I was nearly brutally murdered this morning during training. Tasha 45 kicked me and her aim was kind of off so her kick went straight for my neck!!! AHHHHH!!!!!!! THE PAIN!!!!! ARGH!!!!!
....................................................
I'M STILL ALIVE!!!!!!! ALLELUIA!!!
Luckily my jaw isn't dislocated or anything. :D
And I'm going to have 2 of my wisdom teeth extraction tomorrow!!! NOOOO!!!! I'll have to eat a lot of ice cream!!! My diet's ruined!!!!!! Oh well.... It's not that bad, I guess. :D
I also got telebabad kanina coz I gave my best friend a call! :D
Grabe we talked like for mga 2 hours! Hehehehe...
And right now my brother, JR, is watching me write yet another post in my blog. :D
Here's what he want to say:
"Yo I hate this!"
He's just being maarte and epal shy so don't take him seriously. :D
That's all for now!
Ja ne!!! :D

Good Friday's Here :D

2006-04-14T21:00:00.000+08:00

Yo! I went to Tito Tito's house today! I didn't go swimming though. :D
Not in the mood kasi. JR has an ear infection pala or swimmer's ear or something.
All my barkada mates are missing din!!!
WAHHHH!
Ampie hasn't visited me either! I'll make her tampo!!!
Grabe I need to lose weight na rin!!!! I've been missing dinner nowadays too! :D
But I'm not killing myself FYI!!!!
What else???
Bucky has been eliminated from American Idol!!! WHYYY!!!!! It should have been Ace!!!
La lang! Ang sama ko! :D
That's all for now!
SHOPPING TOMORROW!!!

Holy Thursday Special :D

2006-04-13T18:23:00.000+08:00

Wow, it's been a while since my last post! :D
OK, so today's Holy Thursday. :D
I visited 14 churches this morning.
My favorite ones were the one that had a old gothic structure (complete with the stand were priests gave the gospels- a imagined rapist Pare Damaso was there. hehehe :D) and the Shrine of Jesus (It was near the bay and it was very windy there kasi!). My dad and I went to the walkway part! So much fun! My dad was sooo corny since he didn't want to race back...
My mom stayed behind since she can't walk too far because there's something wrong with the bone in her foot. It was very funny when she had to get an injection in that foot! I was laughing like crazy since she was screaming like hell! HAHAHAHA!!!!
Oh, and I finally solved my problem regarding the review classes! I'm too scared! I'm sorry! I just want to make sure I pass ok! So I'm taking review classes!!! But it's only mga 6 sessions ata. But that's ok. :D
So that's it for now. :D
I'll be going to Singapore, Cambodia & Vietnam in two weeks for you information!
Plus, I'm going to do some shopping in Rockwell this Saturday! I want new shoes and 'How to draw manga' books!!!!
:D

My life's fun but is so full of uncertainities and fears...

2006-03-31T01:13:00.000+08:00

Ok...I feel like I really want to talk to someone, but can't at the moment since I haven't had the chance to talk to all my friends at the moment.
And I'm not even sure if I want to talk to anyone at the same time...
But, I noticed that I haven't exactly been feeling all joyous and happy these past few days, so, to lighten the load of my mind and chest, I will post my current thoughts and feelings in this blog.
[I hope no one will judge me negatively for this...*sweatdrop*]
ok...I shall start. First, I will share what's happened in the past few days.
1)I arrive home from Zambales
2)I went to mall since it was my friend's b-day (movies and yellow cab :D)
3)Finished Gundam Seed at my friend's house
4)Went to the dentist regarding the 'extraction' of my wisdom teeth (very scary coz he told me and my mom the risks...)
5)Meeting my best friend after months of separation and finding out she's taking review classes
That's what's been happening recently...
Next, I shall share what's been on my mind....
I've been thinking a lot after my encounter with my best friend. I felt uneasy when I found out when she's taking review classes. She's extremely smart pa! Also everyone I know is taking review classes. Why is this such a big deal? BECAUSE! I"M NOT TAKING REVIEW CLASSES!!! I may be the type to get around high to average grades, but I lack a great deal of self-confidence. And I'm especially scared that I won't pass the UPCAT exams... :( I most certainly don't want that to ever happen! To be the first in my family to fail the UPCAT...I don't even want to think about it...
The reasons anyone would ask me as to why don't I take the review then are:
1)my dad's saying: "No guts, no glory."
2)my 'motto' in my friendster account: "I'm not afraid of a challenge..."
3)No one in my family has ever taken the review
4)And most of all: majority of the people closest to me believe I don't need to take the review...
I also want to be more independent and have more confindence in my capabilities. But I have this fear in me that always takes over no matter how much I reassure myself that things will turn out fine. The fear of failing, being left behind, losing the chance to make others proud and happy for me...
I just don't know what to think anymore...
I even made a list of I wanted to do in the future...how much I wanted to change and become a better person without changing who I really am...
I'm sooo confused and insecure and also scared (since I'm getting my report card tomorrow).
*deep sigh* I just hope everything does turn out alright in the end, no matter what happens...
And...I pray from deep within my heart that I can the future head on with a brave heart.

Fushigi Yuugi: GENBU KAIDEN!!!

2006-03-18T13:59:00.001+08:00

genbu

This is yet another B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L pic that was suppose to be part of the stupid stupid background...
It's my fav manga; I can't say it's my fav anime since technically...it's not an anime...but I'm hoping it will be one soon :D
The B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L man in the pic is MINE!!!!
RIMUDO ROCKS!!!!!!!!
Sure, I love him and Takiko (the B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L and awesome gal in the pic) together...
BUT...I claim him for myself...BWAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!
*cough* *cough*
please excuse me for I am love-struck Rimudo fangirl...
:D

Tsubasa Chronicle Reservoir :D

2006-03-18T13:59:00.000+08:00

tsubasa

This is one of the pics that was suppose to be part of the blog's stupid background...
oh well, it's still very pretty :D
Shaoran X Sakura 4ever!!!
And the cool yet hilarious trio: Kurogane (Kuro-rin :D), Fai (Gorgeous and NOT gay!!!), and Mokona the cutest thing in the world!!!!!!!! (MEKYO!!!! :3 )
well, just sharing :D
maybe my blog should comprise more of my outbursts about anime :D....

My Eyes Sting...

2006-03-18T13:36:00.000+08:00

I had to reedit my entire blog all over again...
you cannot believe how hard it was...
I wanted my background to have anime pics...but noooo...the stupid code doesn't work!!!
Also the banner for ear-tweak.com doesnt com out either!!!
SO ANNOYING!!!!!
I also have to clean and oraganize my entire house by this summer and also study for my college entrance exams...NOOOO!!!!!!!!
What a nightmare...
Oh well...I hope I have fun nevertheless this summer...
That's all for now...
:)

Sooo tiring....

2006-03-16T19:27:00.000+08:00

MAN, it took forever to finish fixing this stupid blog!!!
and the internet loves me so much that it disconnected my connection a few hours ago... grrrr.... *mutters: someone is out to get me....i can feel it...*and my tsubasa chronicle reservoir episode 26 torrent got lost so i have to download it again!!!!!!! GRRRRR!!!!!!!!!
soooo annoying....
this blog reminds me of the time I first used friendster....
took me hours to fix the damn thing....
And while I was waiting for the torrent to download, I watched the last episode of Jewel in the Palace
It had such a very kawaii ending....
well that's all for now...
I plan on fixing my entire house this summer, too.
I've gone mad haven't I.... BWAHAHAHAHA!!!!!
oh well... >:D

First Blog EVER!!!

2006-03-15T23:23:00.000+08:00

Whatta day...
I cleaned my entire room today at last!!!!
I even made a list of what I'm going to do this summer!!! So much to do pala!!!

I'm going to Zambales next week by the way!!! YEY!!! :D
Too bad only only 3 out of 7 of my friends are going!!! And this was suppose to be my advanced b-day outing...
oh well, can't do anything but face the music...

I just learned how to download torrents!!! YEY!!! ANIME GALORE!!!!!!!!
but...I have to study this summer for college entrance exams...this sucks!!!!!!
hayyy....time flies so fast talaga...
Can you believe that 3rd year high school seems to have just flown by all of a sudden...
Grabe...and can you believe I actually have a blog now...well, for me it's really weird :D
Si Carrissa kasi!!!
Well, that's all for now...
:D